Punishment for Accidents

Sweat rolls down my face And my hands are shaking My lips won’t stop bleeding And my heart keeps breaking I sit paralysed in shock As though I’m under a spell Punishment for accidents Deemed to be cast into hell Locked away in my room, alone Hiding in the darkness from within I wallow in pain from long ago Remembering kisses that taste of sin Drowning in these thoughts They devour every smile Hold my breath until its gone So it won’t hurt me for a while But soon it all returns A memory slowly burns And now another feeling As though my skin is peeling And so revealing what’s inside I’ll have no where left to hide Friends and family will turn their heads And look the other way Ignore my tears, pretending they don’t see And only few will stay Silently I weep in plain sight Haunted by the past Frightened by what’s to come And what isn’t going to last