I stand there
in silence 
just looking
i feel nothing
it just sits there
mocking me
taunting me
i pick it up
putting it to my wrist
i just stare
i feel i have to
like something 
will happen
and
i'll feel no pain
i put it down
look at it
then 
pick it up again
i look away
it slowly cuts my fleash
a tear
rolls down my cheeck
as blood
rolls off my wrist
and falls to the floor
i put it down
my wrist
arm
stained
bloody
i hear it
laughing
crying
yelling
i can;t take it
i pick it up again
then...