I hate this..........

I hate this I dont want to love him anymore I cry I scream I feel every ounce of ache in my chest all the time spent together every second every kiss every touch I hate this the tears wont stop the hole wont heal the pain lingers I hate this I want it to go i want it to stop i dont want to love him anymore why cant i stop loving him? why cant this pain cease? why can i not get him out of my head thinking about him dreaming about him wondering what he is doing wondering if shes better than me wondering if he loves her more than he did me I hate this.