Ballad Of A BreakUp Blues

He stood taller than me Although being petite most do When with him id look in his eyes And what was there tricked me too His hands were larger And his face was soft to feel To see me smile would light him Well that fire I could not steal His want was not his need And unknowingly he bled His heart was turning in its cage Though you couldnt tell from what he said He would hold me close As I dreamed him in my heart His perfection was breathtaking And I didnt think we'd part Tighter if i mumbled And longer if I cried And I can say he never loved me But I cant say he never tried He was there at the end of the line Should I need to hear his voice But his comfort would cause torture He alone made that choice He took it upon himself To state a change of mind To stay with me to keep me strong To him would be unkind How my heart did break As he shakingly held my hand And how I lost my breath for eternity As I could not understand I loved him in my way But never more than then Sitting not a metre away The pinnacle of all men I lay down then in familiarity For my head and heart did spin He reached out to touch me in care But it felt more like a sin He continued to be my knight And I wanted to hate him instead The tears began to start As my emotions battled my head I asked an honest question The answer pierced me to the core Every question I asked I remember But nothing compared to what he swore Trembling I stood alone As I was hurting more than i could bear I slowly walked from his house Left the love i had known there He stood at the door as I left And watched me cross the street A car nearly knocked me down As I muddled up my feet And I didnt look back at him But I know he watched me go I turned the corner and just broke down Though that he'll never know And I wandered through the streets With a friend against my ear The trauma blinded my need to go on And I fell throughout my fear I crossed a bridge that day Tears cascading in every vein People stopped and called to me They could see all of my pain It rained from my pores that day I dont know how I reached the end I walked aimlessly about my town Until my feet dragged me to a best friend Her face fell at the sight of me As I crumpled to her lap She listened attentively Then told me it was a bunch of crap I guess it was thinking back But i know it made me strong The downside is im scared to fall again Incase I get it wrong Everyone saw me cry that day And they'd seen my happy state No one understood why, not even him But this was my destined fate And i do miss him sometimes But no more than others ive lost And to relive those memories endlessly Well my heart was worth the cost Im trust that im stronger No more in love with something not for me The ones I want now... Well id like for them to see Dont get me wrong for Im happy The tears dont fall no more And ive healed and learned from everything Although nostalgia makes me sore But im ready to take someone elses hand If they offered it for nought Id give my heart for them to keep From the fall i beg to be caught