why does it hurt, when you are around?
why can't i express, the pain that i feel?
why cant i get my head straight?
why do these memories still haunt me?
why does know one else remember?
why do i feel this way?
when will it all end?
do you feel the same?
could i be more confused?
could i be more lost?
i love you 
i hate you
i'm lost
i'm dead

(this isn't so much a poem as a jumble of feelings im having
about previous experiences as a child, and love i dont want
to lose. if either of these people read this, i hope you
know how you make me feel and how you've changed my life for
better and worse)


Adam