a christmas wish.
it's all the same.
everyone gets new toys,
and some that are lame.

everyone goes around,
showing off what they got.
yet i show off too,
yet my favorite i act as if i forgot.

some  got new toys and treats,
and get new clothes and shoes to go on their feet.

yet some are there,
and they ask "whatd u get."
i just shrug and say
"a new cell and something i shall never forget"

they all look at each other and act confused,
they all asked me what,
but i just refused.

because my gift is special,
but you wouldn't understand.
because you cant put it in a box.
or tie it with a ribbon or a band.

I can smile again.
for once in my life.
to you it may be nothing,
but for me, its the only way i survive.

i was depressed,
and i still am.
but today i tried and remembered,
on who i really am.

becuase some wish for a million.
or something from their boyfriend like a kiss in the sand.
but today, the Lord Jesus
gave me a helping hand.

i feel so bright 
as if i could die.
but now i have His smile,
too bad i'll have to say goodbye...

but then again, who says i have to  say goodbye.
and why do i have to go back to my cutz and cry.

if i choose to be happy,
then i should.
and maybe if i try hard enough,
maybe i could.

but i feel as if its a dream and a lie.
and soon i'll end up going back to suide and then die.

but that is why i pray to you my Lord,
and i sing to you with an i-love-you kiss.
and i thank you for granting,
my one and only
christmas wish...

:)