why
why is it so hard
hard to let them in
to them all see the real me
no false allusions
no smoke and mirrors
nothing
just me
if i want him
i have to let them all in
its so hard
with the things that i have been through
i finally closed my self off
i limited the people that i was going to let into my life
and then this happened
i didnt expect it
not at all
this was not in my plan
but this is good. right?!?!
i trust them
but never really trust them
they know stuff
but they dont know close to it all
it is the image that i project
truth is
i am affraid that people wont like the real me
and i already know they like this me
so i keep up the facade
even though i am tired of it
tired of pretending
i need to just let it all out
say...the person you think you know
isnt really me
and i get ready to do it
then back out
it has happened a million times
but i have to let them in
of course letting him in to see the real me
would also be a big improvement
so i have now decided
to start over
hi, my name is Brandi