Stargazing At The Moon (Hold My Tongue)

I never wanted to hurt anyone I only dreamed of a place in your sun I know its her eyes your hopes are hung So I'll hold my tongue Because I have more of an empty space to fill I'll love you more than she ever will I know I'd be a tough rule to bend Seasons change and so does the wind I think it's best that I just forget How can I win what I can't regret I know how it feels to fall apart How could I break another girl's heart This is a very personal poem, but I trust you guys so I'll tell its story. Okay...There is this guy I kinda like. I know it's so jr. high to still get crushes, but he's...special. However, he's in love with this other girl. He has tried his best to be her boyfriend, but they just are not a couple. They've gone to dances together, and I have seen them dance. If you could only see his face at those times, you would understand my predicament. Another however, most guys at my school don't necessarily go for me. I'm a tad bit thick but not fat, I mean I work out a lot. I think someone told him I have crush on him, but he is sweet enough not to say anything. He sits next to me now at recess, but I don't know if it is out of pity or friendship. Anyway, I think this girl may like him now, but he does not show much interest in her. Before anyone goes crazy with the comments, we are the same age , but he is a grade below me. He held back for football one year. I am a junior this year, so I my hands are kinda tied. For those who are still reading this, thank you for your patience. Now I put my trust in you all to tell me what to do.