I want to give myself a scar.
My very first scar that would be on purpose.
I want to feel the blood run down.
I want to feel some pain.
I want to feel the coldness of the blood.
Why cant I?
Nobody will notice!
No one pays attention.
Why not just add one little scar onto my arm?
Oh yeah!
I know why!
Because I am to weak!
I cant work up the nerve to do it!
It just kills me that I cant.
I want a way to forget,
Even for a little while,
The pain I am in right now. 
But why? 
Why cant I do it?
Why am I so weak?
I want to!
I want to see the blood.
I want to feel it run down my arm.
I want to feel a better pain.