Suffer, my Pseudo-lover

Oh, you may think it was all you fault For the naming of names Blaming, and manipulation Empty threats, followed by contrition Know this well, those were true My heart and soul were your toys My sanity, for you, Was the sweetest of wines to be drunk But, do you know? That I was a culprit, too? In those battles of the wills That I always seemed to lose Oh yes, I am not so innocent I played you too Do you remember how I was always confused? Reveling in your attention Basking in your praise Taunting you, seducing you Almost subliminally And when your bad behavior Pushed me away, I let you back in Yes, I was playing with The most dangerous of fires Oh, you know That I secretly enjoyed it Almost subconciously And that fateful night I almost died, I was the 'victim' But, truth be told My game failed; I lost You were the winner after all I took your money, affection I took your time And gave you only false love In return And now I hope you suffer Whenever you see me in your mind I hope you remember our time And know that you'll never have me again I hope my faint memory Taunts you, haunts you Until the end And I hope That you scream, and weep With misery, anguish, pain And if, by chance, I see it I will laugh, my heart lifted by your broken one