Self-Inflicted or My Own Grand Creed(not sure which name)

So I'll sit and cry I'm just trying to die Just making the cuts you'll never see Just giving more pain for me All these cuts and bruises I need This is my own grand creed With this fucking knife I shall slowly take my life These cut and bruises are self-inflicted Just because of all I ever did The tears flow like rain But I deserve the pain You wont understand the reasons So just leave me with my demons Im slowly fading Like Jesus,sin for blood,I'm trading The is for all the bad I've done Crimson red,and I've barely begun It will take some time But the death is mine It is my decision With this blade,I'll make another incision It shall be so deep My own soul, I'll reap As I look at my crimson wrists I'm reminded of why I do this It takes the sorrow away Sorrow from every secind,every day I love this blade as it goes through my skin I slide it deeper and deeper in