The Truth Hurts

Have you ever kept a secret from the one you loved? I’m so young I didn’t see him coming. I didn’t mean to hurt you. You don’t deserve this. I got to tell you the truth. I got to do this. You couldn’t handle it. You didn’t see me when I cried because I turned my back. I didn’t see him coming. It wasn’t on purpose. you can’t handle the truth. you have been threw so much damage in your past. I feel lover than life itself. I have been waiting, putting this off for the perfect time to tell you. you’re going to hate me and never except me into your life again. What have I done this time. I try to speak the words just want come they are stuck deep inside with the heart aching tears. Maybe if I just wait a few more days then time will settle and you may understand. Baby I’m crying everything was so good and I don’t have the courage with in to tell you what’s going on. Oh I never thought the pain would hurt this bad. I got to tell you the truth. What do I do? If you thought I was perfect you are so wrong. I’m far from it. There is one thing I have done. I regret it so much. I know it is not good to keep it in and not telling you but if I told you everything that one was oh so good will soon be oh so bad. Would you forgive me? Or would you be hurting to much to even think about it. Please don’t watch me cry myself to sleep. I know you know that something is truly wrong with me. you are the only person in the world that understands me inside and out. I was lost and didn’t want to go with him but he was so nice and said he could show me the way. I’m only human, everyone makes mistakes. He held me down and forced himself on me. I done gone and messed up totally. I wish I could take it back. I wish I could have told him no. I wish this would just disappear. Would you be able to understand me? Would you hold it against me. Would you hold me tight and comfort me and tell me it wasn’t my fault. Would you kick me out and tell me to leave you the hell alone? What would you do? The truth hurts so badly. I know I have to tell you now. It can’t wait any longer than it already has. I am so scared my heart races as I walk to your chair. my feet trembles as I sat next to you. The tears burns my eyes as I try to hold them back. Everybody makes mistakes it only human.