What if?

what if my life had no meaning and what i'm doing, there is no point? all the times ive tried to let go and you've just held me back. what if my life had was supposed to end and what im doing i shouldnt be? these tears ive cried and cuts ive made i cant answer the things unsure to me what if god made a mistake and took somebody else instead of me? all the things that they could be doing like serving our country or changing the world what if i was supposed to be with him get married and have his children? im far too young but nowadays every teen is getting knocked up. what if i was beautiful and there was somebody that wanted me? not like i was a punching bag for every time he got angry. all these "what if" questions i cannot answer because no one ever knows. what if somebody had the answer and all my worries were let go?