What kills you?

Thoughts of you creep into my head slide under the crack of the door that i have locked you away in try to distract myself math homework a book my ipod but none can possibly save me from the thoughts of you and what kills me is how you smiled the way your eyes sparkled the way i could be myself completely around you the way i didn't have to hide anything the way i could just huddle under your arms and everything would seem alright for a moment i think of you now the way you can't even bare to let me explain the way you can't even look me in the eye the way you moved on so fast the way you know what you've done to me yet you don't even care