Beautiful..Deadly

Tears fill my eyes. while my heart is breaking. Every heart beat i take. My heart slows down. Im worried. Im scared to sleep at nite becus thats when my nightmares come time life. You left me. Here alone. every breathe i take kills me. People ask whats wrong. others mimic what i say. I juss ignore it and let my wrist bleed. People tell me to go to a dr. before I destroy myself Others juss walk away. Im hearing you but not actually listening. My wrist is bleeding. people say get a towel. cover it up. I say im not ashamed but more ashamed of you for telling me what to do. instead of being here for me. The happiness. The love in my life drips away as the blood drips to the floor. every morning Id wake up looking forward to the day. But i look forward to death. people say id rather feel hurt then nothing at all. Well if you felt my pain youd rather have nothing than this. MY wrist bleeds. my sister crys for help. But no one arrives...But you. But then im thinking with the last few mins of my breathe.you gave me hope. you came to me when i needed you most. dont feel no pain cus when im gone ima look down on you and smile so baby dotn feel no pain juss smile back. your here now. you came. Tears fill my eyes but not for the same reason as before. your here with me. your hugging me tight as you can while im using my last breathe to hug you back. My last words. My last breathe. are used for you. Id give you my last breathe to say, I love you