Dreams Become My Reality (2 of im lost)

Tears are feeling my eyes. Im thinking. and thinking hurts. The sea of tears are coming back...The nightmares become my reality. when there suppose to be "only dreams" My heart is beating but slows down with every breathe i take. Make the Tears stop. The songs. The happy songs. Our song is on but my tears are still falin. Why? I feel like were in secret its bothering me. But i said i was done with the sea of tears. and the disappearing of my lonelyness. im suppose to stand up straight and im suppose to talk when im asked to but i never do. I write all the time becus it reminds me of you. I dream a dream. Its my nightmare comeing to life. I write about it and dream about it all the time. aint it suppose to be "juss a dream"? But then again my nightmares become my reality...I let my heart do the talking and let my feelings take the pain. But will it ever stop. can you tell me pls. so i can have something to jump and scream about too?