Recently, you've done a much better job
of caring about me
when i go to my closet and cry
heaving sobs
you come, 
ask whats wrong
sometimes if i'm lucky you even reveal some of your own
feelings

growing up,
i was always saddened 
a mental problem?
maybe, just quite
but you never cared
you laughed and thought i was going insane
but i was, no joke.

you never cared
so i listed you out
i never considered you my real mother
i imagined a world
where my real mother,
a loving caring woman,
came to pick me up

telling me how beautiful i am
every second of every day
but those thoughts,
they never did come true

instead God made your conscious
come about,
and here you are
giving it another try