Blood splatters onto my silk hand-threaded white frock
my pearl crown now dangling from a single curl on my head
this was supposed to be a fairytale
a fantasy
i try to bite the chains of
but to no avail
i'm stuck here
in my own head
i think of positive things
i try to uplift the chains
i try to imagine the good days
but my mind is poisoned with the thoughts of you

sick with your endless fibs
i hear the monster coming
the deafening humming
i squeeze my eyes shut
"please, please go away"
i beg but the noise only comes closer

i twist my hand back and forth 
cry out as the pain shoots up
too afraid to look back
i only look forward
in the distance 
i see what used to be me
happy, merry, me
with you,
ever loving you

a tear slips away and slides to the area of my heart
which is as broken as they come
sliced and diced
taped foolishly together
the humming gets louder

i look to my right
and see my family
my caring, loving family
i never meant to hurt them
with the way i was
another tear slips
because i know they'd be much happier without me

the humming increases, so loud my ears buzz

i look to my left and see all the friends i ever had
they tried to figure me out
figure out what happened
why one day
i just wasn't the same
they even pretend they still care
the third tear slips because i've hurt them so much

the humming nearly in my ear,
i turn around and smile
because i'm ready for the monster
finally ready.