Chopping Block

Blood splatters onto my silk hand-threaded white frock my pearl crown now dangling from a single curl on my head this was supposed to be a fairytale a fantasy i try to bite the chains of but to no avail i'm stuck here in my own head i think of positive things i try to uplift the chains i try to imagine the good days but my mind is poisoned with the thoughts of you sick with your endless fibs i hear the monster coming the deafening humming i squeeze my eyes shut "please, please go away" i beg but the noise only comes closer i twist my hand back and forth cry out as the pain shoots up too afraid to look back i only look forward in the distance i see what used to be me happy, merry, me with you, ever loving you a tear slips away and slides to the area of my heart which is as broken as they come sliced and diced taped foolishly together the humming gets louder i look to my right and see my family my caring, loving family i never meant to hurt them with the way i was another tear slips because i know they'd be much happier without me the humming increases, so loud my ears buzz i look to my left and see all the friends i ever had they tried to figure me out figure out what happened why one day i just wasn't the same they even pretend they still care the third tear slips because i've hurt them so much the humming nearly in my ear, i turn around and smile because i'm ready for the monster finally ready.