I'm Leaving You, Yet I Love You

When I'm with you While I'm tasting your bitter sweet love It feels like I don't give any thought to the world I'd be blinded from seeing the truth All what I'd be able to see is you All I'd want is to be with you Feeling the warmth of your love But that would only last for a while Then for a while, I'd be away The curtains of truth would lift up I'd wake up again from this painful slumber The whole world and the ugly truth Would crash upon my head I'd see everything clearly I'd wish that it was all in my head Thoughts would go circling around my head Telling me to get out as soon as possible, and leave! Arrested by these thoughts Arrested by the truth That at times, I refuse to see I do love you At least that's what I tend to believe I know that I can love you more I am able to show you more of my love But when I think about this world, about the truth I feel like I need to withdraw my feelings and kill them slowly I feel like I need to withdraw my whole being Keep everything locked up in my heart-shaped box I want a man that I can love with all my might Someone to hold his hand in public To hug when I need his arms around me To love and feel glad and relaxed around him Instead of being worried and tensed like when I'm around you To shout on top of my lungs to the world, "This is the man I love and want to spend my entire life with!" A man that I'd tell people about how much I love To hear them ask me, "How's your man doing?" A man that I feel safe and secure around Someone that I know I can grow old with And share the bad and good days together To talk to as a friend To have great times and stand together through hard times as best friends To adore, cherish and love as his only lover To respect and value as his wife, as his life time partner With you, There's a huge missing piece to this puzzle called life Living a secretive love Putting up with lies Having a double life Feeling lost all the time Loving you while knowing that it will all end one day It all breaks me down and asphyxiates me Times goes by fast And I'll be leaving forever Our story will end In one way or another So why make it later rather than sooner? It'll only complicate things and make it harder I don't regret knowing you nor loving you You changed me in so many ways You taught me so much And showed me life in another new prospective I believe that some people you get to know during life Affect you and change you To evolve to the person that your future awaits And you helped me evolve, in a good way But what must be done, should be done This is what will happen anyways Whether it was today, tomorrow, or within the next three years So cutting the painful long road to a shorter one, Is the best and wise thing to do.