Walking upon,
some missing stones.
All crooked and broken.
Chipped sides,
and degrading bit by bit.

By the pond,
you find me skipping.
I throw in pebbles,
i close me eyes and hear them skip.
My heart pounds,
i can't breathe.

For once,
I am satisfied...

But then,
as i had found out,
some stones were missing,
i clutched onto my heart,
and watched the world tear apart.

I 
 Did 
    Not 
       Exist...

I cried my life away,
i was at least lucky if i even could.
Most of the time,
I stood,
emotionless.
No anger,
no sadness,
no happiness or anything.

And as i look at the wall,
i saw my life pass by.
Sleepless nights,
an hour sleep if lucky.
I haven't eaten for days,
no wonder i almost collapsed in the cafeteria.

I
 Am
   A
    Mess...

I was failing two of my best classes,
i just couldn't focus.
Life didn't matter anymore,
no guys,
no friends,
no life...but my own.

Missing stones,
can't break my bones,
But instead will kill me,
emotionally.

I died that day,
I could not feel.
I had no heart,
it was made of steel.

I never did exist,
and i never will.
I want to though,
but i can't.

That is why i did that to myself.
As punishment for existing.
I should have never lost those stones,
i should have never got them in the first place.

And as i look into the water,
i see a beautiful, bright glow.
I put my hand in,
and lifted up
out of the water,
a magnificent stone.
I want to cry,
of the magnificent perfection it holds.

Yet i throw it back into the water.
Never will i deserve this stone,
i don't exist-Remember?

Lost
    With
        Missing
               Stones...