A wall

The bricks connect And build on one another So high and cemented together The structure you see Is telling you You can't come in You have not earned that right It blocks you From all I hold dear To keep you from coming near It pushes you back further As to say, go away Have built as a defense From the cruelty and pain Preventing it once again Can't trust nor rely Been stabbed too many times It allows nothing to come in But also anything from coming out And so I still feel the same And maybe worst by now Not knowing how or when or To who to let go Though the bricks I need to find a space For just a second To release the pain and shame Give myself permission To allow it to come down Just a little So now you know What keeps you at bay It's something I have built A boundary of sorts Called A wall