No one will truly know

I speak through my writing yet no one hears my silent cries I try to be strong and not become overcome by my sadness when I feel there is a war inside me that rips me apart A war not of this world but of the spirit and a broken heart I have tried so hard and fought all my life to keep anyone from seeing my pain Now when I need help...... no one can hear my screams I cry myself to sleep only to awake crying again And a voice not strong yet is telling me to take my life I fear if I don't heal ,it will take control My mouth is useless because I fear peoples thoughts of me So I don't dare raise my head and look into there confident eyes And ask them to help me save my own life How can I ask such a thing I am nothing and will forever be nothing That voice is becoming stronger and I am losing my will to fight Help me, save me from myself