Don't Listen To That Breakup Song

There's something rather sadistic About how I prepare to be alone I withdraw into my little world Surrounded by the music I own I flick from album cover to ipod Looking for that perfect track Looking in someone else's heartache To find the strength that I lack Then I find a song with words I know I press the fateful button "play" I let the melody sooth my pain And my empty tears just run away Sitting in my silent sobs Singing the words within my head I try to decide whether to pack my bags Or to carry on with you instead There's something deeply immoral About how I psyche myself up for heartache How in an instant my hopes are dashed And its my own heart that I break For as I listen to my perfected playlist Of all those famous melodies I lose myself in words of others And forget that this is you and me. Its me and you. My love. My one. What new stupidity rules my day? Why am I sitting on the floor crying When you havent even gone away There truly is something sadistic About how I cut emotionally out of protection When your still coming home to my bed Showing me endless love and affection Oh sometimes I really am just a fool I need to stop worrying that you will disappear Because if Im not oh so very careful You'll have a reason to not be here.