relapse

perhaps I ask too much attempting to resist the one that got away as he blows a fatal kiss his arms wrapped tight around me til my heart beats in his chest we havent known each other long and yet he knows me best so while i flirt with danger while the detox slowly fades some sunlight hurts my eyelids and im forced to put on shades destruction softly creeping in a visit from my past a test of all i've tried to learn to see how long i'll last and the leaves are dancing on the wind without a fear, without a care and i cant help but long to be amongst them dancing there exhale. relax. attempt to breathe rebirthing constantly inhale. hold on, hold on, hold on then close my eyes to see somewhere i cant begin to place familiar strange & real one day i'll make it over there and take my final meal while the arms of a sweet stranger try to shake me from my sleep whoever else he's left with are the ones who'll hear him weep if they should feel concern for him then i will see them soon- however long it takes for them to crash into the moon