Always that girl-rewritten

Ill always be that girl who doesn't have a name, who doesn't have a face. I'll always be that girl who doesn't take much time to replace, who can never find her way. I'll always be that girl at the bottom of list, melancholy at best. I'll always be that girl everyone uses, everyone assumes is just shy. I'll always be that girl who wears a facade, contemplating whether or not to take her life. I'll be that girl where part of her wants to runaway, part of her always has to stay. I'll always be that girl who feels ashamed, feels empty. I'll always be that girl who is tired of crying, tired of fighting. I'll always be that girl sick of the reasons, sick of the disguise. I'll always be that girl behind the wall, hoping it will fall just to end it all. I'll always be that girl who isn't worth the time of day, who tries to hide the scars that refuse to fade . I'll always be that girl scared to tell, scared of what you'll believe. I'll always be that girl who is Invisible, but that girl will always be me. I'll be the girl who speaks of words that could make you grow numb. For as long as I can remember I've been alone in this small town. People will gather at the site if I ever choose to speak, but they'll never be able to look past the lies they perceive. Just a broken down and bothered soul, I know no one will figure out the secrets that I’ve told. I bite my tongue scared to tell, even though I know no one will hear the truth. I could tell stories or spill out all my dreams, I could pound away at black and white keys. I would do anything for people to just look my way, but they're blinded from reality. If they would just give me one second out of their day. they might attempt to change me into something i could never be. I'll always be that girl who is invisible ,but that girl will always be me.