i guess i was wrong
you never wanted me
not once really
i was pretending all along.
and now
how hurt i sit
and weep..
my eyes bleed black tears
and my arms drop red love
and frankly
i hate not hating you
do you even care
for an instant
how much i wanted you?
how much i sat and worried
and how i held you when you cried
i thought it was i
who kept you going
long after your soul had died.
i would have done
everything
i would have been
anything
all i wanted in the end
was for you to want me
just the way i wanted you.
i never cried for the boys
the way i cried for you
i guess though
in the end
it was just way too good to be true.
and still when i saw you
sitting with the dirt
looking like they do
acting like you were one too...
when you were one of them
oh my goth how that did hurt
and when you looked straight at me
and gave me the finger
i still hurt inside
thinking, wow
the Michelle i loved
must have died.
i loved..
thats a lie
i do love
though i dont know why.


xoxo
Kyelle