today you joked
that we divorced
and then you left
without remorse
we chatted amiably
across the room
faking a breakup
dramatic
estatic
elastic
plastic.
but now i wonder
here at home
was there something
more to what
you said
and did
today?
you said
i need a change
of scenery
and i was like
hey i changed yo
im gansta now see?
and you were like
thats the point
and i was like oh well
don't be hatin'
and then steph came
and i ignored
the flaming pain
of rejection
wondering why
it was that you
had to move
and so now
i remember
thursday night
when michelle and I
got in that fight
and you pulled
me away
and took the pain
you were like
you'll be friends again
and gave me hope
and i guess then
things were weird
on friday
i was like
uber wired
but whatevs
you said that
it didn't matter
and now i wonder
were you wrong?
i guess then
i knew it all 
along
i am weird
and poeple hate that
i think
but whatevs
i just wish
that you didn't hate
who i am...
becuase frig...
nevermind
you just...
wouldn't understand.

xoxo
Kyelle