overjoyed, 
a feeling falling soon 
sweeping low, 
a curtian tumbling, 
on a scene that can never show. 
fleeting substance
quick to evapourate
nothing more than everything
and everything less than nothing
i do not now know
what i am becoming.
fallen fast
smiles can never last.
catching all the rain
the tears, the blood
every ounce of pain
a smile..
gracing faces
laughter cold, 
never heard
something obscene
but not absurd.
i love you
and yet i hate
every waking moment
you have i wish then
for this to all end
something quick and easy
like, a penknife
jabbed in a letter
nothing said
but nothing's better
so what now?
where are we 
and what we were?
who was here
and who was her?
early morning
grieving loss
something precious can never be lost
and yet my ring
clanks down teh drain
the diamond hopes
i shall never find again
undo the drain and through the mess
i cant find her
thats said best.
so now, wander on alone...
the curtain rotted
the scene ayways shown.
the gasping audience and
charismatic gleam
i guess then
this play was not all 
that she seemed.
so alone
and yet so crowded
nothing i have
is not teh same
as everyone else
and yet here i am
on me... you pin
pinning for a lost blame.
take your bows now
and stand up straight
first position
fifth..
third, 
and once again, 
turn your hips
girls 
are pretty.
mice like cats
and cats like men,
graceful
careful
stepping around the mess
falling now
the clocks ticking backwards
no long is this sensical
birds flying upside down
i wonder now
how long till dead ducks drown?
so now we ponder
the impossible
while bloated wildlife
haunts our dreams
the dying wails
of a small chlid
tipped in a wading pool
of tupertine
forced face under
now again
how parents can blunder.
and so it was an accident?
insurance fraud maybe
let's not forget
the fatc the girl
was hardly wet
just her head
but then again
some heard
that she exclaimed
i am better off dead.
so young, and so pure
13, and she smoked crack
she fucked her step dad
and sold hash
she did it all,
she wasn't so innocent
though she was so small.
fragile even
life would be
a thread holding together
all teh seams
and yet how pretty it is
too see it all fray and fall apart
to watch teh pain
from the start.
so do your drugs
and fuck your boyfriend
watch your pornos
live like life will never end
the curtain always has to fall
then the end is there
and unfortunately
you deserve no chorus line
you need not bow or courtsey
the crowd will cheer
when you hit the stage
like all the bodies in King Lear.
so fuck the world,
go ahead
remeber darling
life is best,
when you're dead.

xoxo
Kyelle