Cowering, like a child 

Rocking back and forth.

My fingers locked behind my head.

My legs underneath me.

My stomach emptying, spewing forth to the floor

The demon inside me speaks


" you'll not expell me from within"


Tears stream down my face

My forearms press tighter against my ears

But am I trying to keep his voice in or out?

Once again, my stomach emptys 

His voice grows louder


"I am part of you now ,

why is it you wish to deny 

our union , your gift?"


" Rather, I would die as to house you inside "


"Look at the crisp white linens,

crumpled and stained with blood.

Do you see what you have done?"


Go away ...leave me alone!

I didn't do this, you did!

Why did you make me do this?


"What is it that sickens you so?

Is it the remorse for the life you took?

Or are you wrenched by the guilt,

In knowing how much you loved it?"


This isn't real, this isn't real

None of this is happening, rocking back and forth

Emptying my stomach once more

A crimson trail from lips to floor