~ ~ Denial ~ ~

Cowering, like a child Rocking back and forth. My fingers locked behind my head. My legs underneath me. My stomach emptying, spewing forth to the floor The demon inside me speaks " you'll not expell me from within" Tears stream down my face My forearms press tighter against my ears But am I trying to keep his voice in or out? Once again, my stomach emptys His voice grows louder "I am part of you now , why is it you wish to deny our union , your gift?" " Rather, I would die as to house you inside " "Look at the crisp white linens, crumpled and stained with blood. Do you see what you have done?" Go away ...leave me alone! I didn't do this, you did! Why did you make me do this? "What is it that sickens you so? Is it the remorse for the life you took? Or are you wrenched by the guilt, In knowing how much you loved it?" This isn't real, this isn't real None of this is happening, rocking back and forth Emptying my stomach once more A crimson trail from lips to floor