This before

I never missed you this before Though number of times I felt very sore It was troubling me at night When I was in doubt to be right I had loved you very much through out life It was my desire and strong belief I was always up with head high As I was cared by you with pride I would miss those harsh words Full of love and commands from lords How can I forget those stories told? When sleep was gripping and I was unable to hold Today I am where I deserve not to be there You would be feeling it some where It was your dedicate effort and move That made me worth while to prove I shall never forget those happy moments When you were totally with my movements Loss or gain, sorrow or joy never mattered Impossible or beyond control was never uttered Today me heart feels apart It was unbearable when you chose to depart It was His wish and desire I miss it dad and sincerely admire I pursue it with zest and zeal I try to make it real and feel Still those long arms can not hearten As you were always patting me all of sudden From my childhood I was loved most You may lift me from ground and boost “Here you see jewel of my crown” He will rule the land and become known I eagerly waited when returned from the school I used to search all places like fool You were not to be seen any where till late night I may rush blindly to you and start to fight All my progress cards were consciously screened All mistakes and future action was outlined He would always want to visit school and apprise All he could not do it to visit in surprise He nurtured me from all the angles I used to be taken in the near by jungles All monkeys, cats and were no threat at all I climbed on little tress as done on the wall We never dreamed you would leave us soon You tired desperately for help in the noon We all rushed to find you in lying on floor You were with eyes wide open and looking at the door I was made stubborn as from steel metal Your departure was about to prove fatal Ever though we recovered from the rude shock Time did not stop for anybody in the clock