In my own cage

I am prisoner in my own cage I have no courage to write down on page It may amount to disgrace I shall have no courage to face I am not sure about other people They may be clever and able I am still feeling shy of admitting I can have no moral courage of committing It may be known drawback Still it is felt by and spoken at the back It consciously bites and hurts When we receive short reply and very curt How can I look out side world for help? When I am totally helpless and unable to sleep It engulfs me with torturous feeling I am afraid and still unwilling I may gather the strength to come out sincerely Such a stage had never occurred to me and faced rarely I am still confident that I may do it fairly I see dark clouds at distance very clearly Let me gear up for any eventuality I think that will reflect well on my ability Nothing should be considered sent by heavenly or Godly I shall gain confidence and face it boldly Let me brace up for future challenge Have enough guts to face and manage I think self defeat is grave sign One must pick up boldly and resign It does not require good use of words One must think positive and look forward I think I am lacking that punch and drive That is why I fear the sea to make deep dive It is pity and self built fear Why person should feel guilty with tears? It has nothing to do with individual’s nature One must analyze self and try to secure I am person of little defeatist tendency I know it is not good but suffer its frequency It is obstacle in progress and real hindrance One must think over it and give more importance I must try to lend my ears and listen to what others might say I should not keep aloof and prefer isolation to remain away It is one of the saddest things if one confines to dark It is bad sign and not considered as good art I shall mix with natural surrounding Visit in open air and start to correspond As I am natural lover and very fond There will be natural appeal from colorful fishes of pond If they can live peacefully and with freedom within I am human being with lots of areas to swim Free in take of air and vast areas to roam Let me change myself completely along with flower’s boom