I loose all thought.
She is beautiful.
Stunned.
All I can do is stare at her,
But I know she likes it.
She stares back,
Her eyes moving all over my body,
I feel inadequate,
Out of her league. 
She looks away and I feel as if I have been hit in the gut.
I knew she didn’t want me.
It was someone behind me she was staring at.
It’s not fair. 
I could have loved her more than any woman could have ever
loved her.
I should just leave.
Why deal with the embarrassment of knowing I am not worthy
of her beauty,
Her striking body,
Her.   
What is that?
I hear someone calling my name.
Just faintly in the air I hear,
Rose, look Rose.
I know it is impossible to hear anything above this music.
It’s just not possible.
Someone is leaning against me. 
I turn around,
 Trying very hard not to run into or knock over this
person.
I am feeling closed in.
This person is pressing very close to me.
I keep turning.
I feel hands wrap around my waist.
I look up,
There she is. 
She is the person leaning against me.
It’s her,
The one I could love.
The one I would do anything for. 
She whispers in my ear,
“I know.”
A wink, a smile,
She knew what I was thinking.
She looks at me and instantly I know her name,
Victoria.
She nods at me and I know I am right.
This is crazy,
And fun,
And just what I needed.
I need a woman who knows what I want.
One who can give me what I want,
 And I don’t have to ask for it.
Victoria looks at the door to the ladies room.
I know what she wants,
So I follow.
We get in past a crowd of people.
Smoke is filling the room. 
She opens a stall and quickly pulls me in. 
I land on her lap,
I try to get up but she holds me down firmly.
Victoria’s long graceful fingers come up,
They trace my cheek,
They turn my head.
Eyes,
Oceans of crystal blue eyes,
Swimming with passion.
Pushing my face ever so gently forward I lean into her.
I feel her body.
It’s perfect in every way. 
Soft pale skin,
Long red curls shinning under the dim light of the
bathroom.
Supple pert breasts pressing against my own,
And lips so red you would think they were bleeding.
 I lean in closer to kiss.
She pauses.
My eyes are wide with worry,
She looks at me deeply,
Diving into my soul.
I feel her in me,
Yet the touches are soft and small.
Telling her with my eyes I tried to plea my case,
I want to kiss her,
Even if it only lasted a moment,
I want her lips on mine.
She keeps staring into my eyes.
Tears form in the corners of my eyes.
She smiles at me.
Victoria knows my pain,
She knows my anguish,
She knows what I want.
But she keeps me at bay.
Watching the tears run down my cheeks,
Watching my pain.
Why was she doing this to me?
I struggle to press my lips on hers,
But it is no use.
She has me with her eyes and her hands.
I try to form the words.
She stops me,
She puts one of her long fingers over my lips.
Skin so warm yet cold,
My tongue darts out to lick the flesh.
I feel her shift under me. 
I wrap my tongue around her finger kissing it passionately,
Trying to get from her finger what she wont give me with
those lips.
Lust is boiling in me.
Passion is my fire,
And it is all for this beautiful creature Victoria.
Kiss me,
Kiss me before I explode was screaming in my mind.
I look up,
Waiting to see any sign that she wants more from me.
I see the passion in her eyes now.
I know she wants me,
But why was she making me wait?
Why is she going to make me suffer so cruelly?
I must master you,
I must have you completely before you have me.
Was that a thought or did she just say that?
I am confused.
I can only feel,
Feel the pain of wanting and craving in my body,
I want you I tried to say.
I want you and will do all that you ask of me.
You are my master,
You are the keeper of my passion and lust,
You and no other shall stir me in this way.
Make me yours Victoria,
Make me your slave.
Victoria presses her full red lips against me.
My body and mind loose all cohesion.
I am falling to pieces.
Her lips are so soft and feel so good.
She forces my mouth open to receive her tongue.
I begin to cry again,
But she is pressing harder and harder.
Her tongue conquering mine,
Her hands holding me with the strength of a man three times
her size.
There is a copper taste in my mouth. 
A little sting on my lip. 
She’s more aggressive now.
Her hands leaving my head,
Searching for my breasts and between my legs.
I thought I would die like this.
Teased with pain and pleasure.
I turn to straddle her with my legs.
Victoria pulls me even closer,
Pressing our breasts closer together,
Her hands sliding down my back to my lower back.
Her hands resting on my hips,
Pulling me in and then pushing me away.
The pleasure is building.
Now my passions crave for more.
I want to hold her naked,
Feel her naked body pressed against mine,
Taste the love that flows from between her legs.
I fight with urgency to pull away and tell her this.
But she keeps me close to her.
Grinding against her body,
Kissing her sweet soft lips,
Tasting blood,
And feeling the sting of my cut lip.
A sound catches my attention.
Someone is banging on the bathroom stall.
Why are they interrupting me?
What could they possibly want?
Go away.
She lets go of me. 
I look back at her.
I want to know if this was it?
Is this all I get of your sweet lips and body?
I want more!
I want so much more from you,
My goddess,
My love,
My master.
Victoria lifts me up gently.
We stand,
 Staring at each other,
Tears flowing freely from my eyes.
Why does this have to end?
Why did you choose to make me your temporary plaything?
She places her finger on my wet lips again.
She opens the door and walks out.
I was rudely pushed out of the way by some woman.
I was so angry.
I was so sad,
I was so empty.
I look around the restroom for Victoria,
Alas she was gone.
Maybe it was all a dream?
Maybe I am too drunk to know what I was doing in there.
Maybe she was just a drug someone slipped to me at the bar?
I will find my friends and leave.
I need to go home and sleep off this perfect hallucination.
But before I go I need to see my lip.
Then I will know if it was true,
Then I will know if I was dreaming,
Then I will know.
There are so many faces in the mirror,
Where is mine?
There it is.
A once beautiful face streaked with tears.
Little tear streaked trails leading to my lips.
Wait,
I see something,
My lip,
It’s cut.
A little nip,
A little red mark on my lip.
It was real.
I wasn’t dreaming.
Confusion,
What was it then?
I need to find her again.
I want to finish.
I want all she has to offer.
A frightening thought,
What if this is it?
What if this is the last time I see her,
Feel her,
Know her?
No,
I wont believe it.
I mustn’t believe it.
I will go crazy if I do.
I wipe my face.
Fix the already ruined face.
Find my friends.
I need to leave.

There they are.
All around the bar,
Drinking and being merry.
I want to be merry again,
I want to feel what I felt in the stall with Victoria.
Oh well,
What is left here?
Just normal faces,
Faces that don’t stick out,
Faces that are like mine,
Not her face.

I leave my merry friends,
The cab wisps me to my apartment.
I can’t stop thinking about her,
My Victoria.
I just need sleep.
Sleep and maybe some food,
That’s all I need.

This is a lonely apartment tonight.
I could have her here.
I could have had love here.
I could have had what I need so badly.
It is now just an empty old apartment.
Music will make me feel better.
I sit on the floor in front of my stereo.
What should I play?
What mood am I in?
Ah some deep and dark music.
That will do.
The first track is on.
I love this music.
It makes the whole apartment feel warm and close.
Now for the food,
What should I eat?
Lets just make a drink.
Rum and coke will do.
Smooth with the light touch of lime.
My troubles are passing already.
Time to sway to the music.
I love dancing,
I love swaying to the music when I am alone.
I kick off my shoes.
That’s more comfortable.
I need this after the night I had.

I think two hours of drinking and swaying is enough.
I am going to bed.
All my troubles left behind.
I don’t even remember her name.
Victoria,
Like a whisper in my mind,
A subconscious thought.
I stumble into my bed.
A little drunk,
A little tired,
And a little disappointed.
She comes back to me in small fragments.
Just little things,
Things that happened between us in that smoke filled
bathroom,
Things I can’t quite remember right now.
Must go to bed.
Ah there it is,
My only salvation for this night,
My bed.
Stripping naked before my favorite mirror I hear something.
What is that?
It sounds like someone is tapping lazily.
Who could be in my apartment?
I must be incredibly drunk to be hearing things.
I know the place was locked up before and after I got home.
Never mind,
I am going to bed.
Sleeping off this night is what I need.
The night is perfect to sleep naked in.
Just a sheet,
Draped over my warm body.
Sweet dreams come take me away. 

Yes,
Run those long nails down my back.
I love that.
No, 
Don’t stop.
What are you doing?
Why are you turning me around Victoria?
You are too beautiful to look at.
I want to imagine you.
I want to keep this dream going.
I don’t want to lie on my back.
I am afraid of what will happen.
I am afraid you will vanish again.
Let me have this,
Let me feel your naked body pressed against my back,
Let me dream of you and me.
You didn’t vanish,
You are right there.
Long hair, blue eyes and soft pale skin looking down on me.
I want you,
I need you.
Yes,
Kiss me.
Those lips.
How they torment me,
How your tongue plays with mine. 
I can feel your hair fall down around my face.
I can feel your naked flesh touch mine.
I am dying the perfect death.
I am all yours Victoria,
Forever and ever.
Victoria,
Crush me with your body.
Yes lie on me.
I can feel all of you now.
Oh the feeling of your mouth on mine mixed with the feel of
your body.
The soft skin of your back under my fingers sends shivers
down my spine.
You are perfect,
And I am all yours,
Totally.
No,
Don’t stop kissing me.
Oh no,
Not my neck,
I will loose all will and strength to you.
Oh my,
Your soft lips on my neck,
Your tongue licking the light sheen of sweat off my neck,
Pure ecstasy.
Your hands are roaming all over me.
I can feel them on my shoulders,
Then my breasts,
Playfully tugging on my nipples.
This is too much,
I am at a loss.
I can’t stop you,
I don’t want to stop you.
Keep going,
Taste my breasts.
They are sweet and ripe for you,
All for you.
Teeth startle me.
Yes,
Bite my nipples,
Yes,
Bite the breast.
Yes,
Yes,
I am all yours,
Completely.
You bit hard.
I can feel your teeth break my skin over my left breast.
What are you doing?
Don’t stop,
It feels good,
The sucking,
The pain.
I am lightheaded.
 I am floating.
Victoria,
You are moving.
Kissing your way lower.
I am still lightheaded.
Oh my,
You are teasing me.
I can feel you just above my pussy,
Oh you are teasing me.
No go lower,
Find the sweet perfect spot.
Please,
I am going to burst. 
Touch it with that wicked tongue of yours.
Flick it around with that talented mouth.
Oh,
Please,
Please,
I am yours,
Forever.
YES,
You did it,
I can feel it.
I can’t help but thrash on the bed. 
You make my body explode with the sweet release.
Sweat drenched I reach for her.
I want to pleasure her,
As she has pleasured me.
I want to taste her and feel her body explode.
She lies down next to me.
I climb on top of her. 
I look down at that beautiful face, 
I see all that she has offered me,
I want to offer it back.
I want her to know,
I want her to feel.
Kiss me.
Is that in my head again?
Or did she say it?
I don’t care.
I am going to be all she could possible want.
Her lips are like a drug, 
And her tongue the mixer.
I kiss her neck,
Playfully bite at it.
She moans when I bite.
I do it again.
Victoria grabs onto me pulling me closer.
I keep biting.
I feel her grinding against me.
I spread her legs with one of my own.
I place it close to her.
She is wild.
Victoria is rubbing herself against my leg.
I bite more,
I bite harder on her neck.
She rubs furiously,
Her whole body lifting and pressing against my leg.
I keep biting,
Harder and harder,
But I am afraid I might hurt her.
I don’t want to scar that beautiful skin.
Without hesitation,
As if knowing what I am thinking,
She presses her hand to my head and presses it deeper,
Deeper into her neck.
I bite as hard as I can,
Letting my tongue lick all around the wound,
Then biting again in the same spot.
She is moaning wildly.
She is rubbing and grinding more rapidly.
I know she is getting close.
I am getting close again.
I can feel the heat rising off the two of us.
I bite and bite.
I broke through the skin.
I taste the copper of her blood.
I pull away afraid,
Terrified I hurt her.
She grips onto me,
Forcing my head deeper down.
I lick up the blood with my tongue.
It tastes too good.
It’s intoxicating.
I want more and more.
Victoria throws me off of her and on to my back.
She jumps on me.
I feel her quivering,
She straddles my leg again,
Rubbing and grinding.
I see her face,
It is in torment.
I want to help her.
I touch her breasts with my hands.
She grabs them very quickly and pins them down near my
head.
I loose all control to her,
I orgasm hard and deep.
My body is shaking,
There is a pain in my neck.
Her head is buried there.
I feel her mouth on me again.
I feel the teeth,
Hard as rocks biting into me,
Harder than I bit her.
Then the blood flows,
Her body quakes,
Shivers,
And she is sucking deeply on my neck.
I feel lightheaded again.
I feel like I am floating,
Up
Up
And almost away.
I can see her over my body.
I can see my room,
My body naked and bleeding.
I can see her feasting on my blood,
But I am at peace.
I am not scared. 
I know I will be ok.
My body jolted.
I feel liquid running down my throat. 
It is warm and very succulent.
I am licking and sucking harder and harder.
I want more.
I want it all.
She pushes me away.
I am curled on the bed,
Confused and dazed.
What just happened?
I was above all of this a few moments ago,
Now I am here.
I look up at Victoria.
I scan her eyes for an answer.
She speaks,
A voice as beautiful as the face,
“You are mine.”
I can’t find any words.
I don’t understand?
“You are mine,
Totally and completely.”
I crawl over to the one who now owns me.
I curl up into her lap like a lost puppy.
She strokes my head,
“In time you will understand.”
I feel reassured by her words.
I know again,
I am hers,
Completely and totally,
Forever
And ever,
Till the end of time.