Violated (Poem)

I was once a born child; A very fragile gem. I glimmered in the sun, And the sun Never left... I started walking around, In some sort of a circle. Kicking pearls around my feet, Free as they were, As the sun had Never set... The clouds would still somehow darken, And I had felt quite alone. I always had this lock on my door; So strangers could Never enter... But one day, This mysterious soul Had owned his own Skeleton Key. He loosened the lock, It took time though, But I am guessing he had Never knocked... He come from behind, His voice lied near my neck, But behind my face. His voice; A whisper. But his words where Never true... He laid my first kiss, And spoke words of such promise. I ended up falling; Believing, In things that were merely fantasies, As for they Never came true... He seemed to have taken my hand, As if he were to whisk me away. I was his princess, He said, But I would have Never made a Princess Di... His hand then curresed me. His fingers lowered down, Then up. "Please?" He says. His voice is light, I cannot deny the feeling I am getting. I was so young, Compared to him. Did not want this though, And yet, I did. I have Never heard such tempting words of his... I fell into, This awful coma. One I could not get out of, For I did not want to leave this creation He had created for me. But he was still merely a simple dream. He was Never real... My body was now covered with his fingerprints. I felt as if I could finally trust. "He was different" I was thinking. I had Never stopped to think... He told me he loved me, I had promised myself I wouldn't believe him. But I was young, Naive, I did not know too much. I Never had the experience... He said i was beautiful, His only one... ...But he broke my heart, One too many times before. I will Never be able to surpass the beauty of "them..." Torn into two, As my flesh felt opened, And cut up. Too emotional I was, But he was too busy getting high. He was Never there... I then felt more like a mistress, Than a girlfriend. It was all for the rush, For the moment. I Never meant more than that... Now he's with someone else, an older girl. He always dates older people, Except me... For I sold myself, To a guy who did not ever really care. All those times together, Meant nothing... ...I was just a used toy, That he Never wants to play with again... Sad thing is, I learned to like it. The way he touched me, And the things he said. I wanted to be lied to again. But he left without notice, The sun had then Never came back out again... The pearls were now rough marbles, And the gems were broken on the floor. I almost took my last breath. He walked away even as he had known this fate. But i decided Never to walk in his circle again... But problem is, I am now weakened. Cannot eat or drink right, Breathe or talk right. I am a Slut because of what I did. And people say that that is not true. But look at me! I just Never knew... Now I look into the mirror, Can never look at my body again. I feel so wrong, so dirty! I Have Never Felt So VIOLATED.