Depression...
it takes over you,
as if being possessed with a spirit.
except it's from the darkness...

you see nothing happen to the victim,
yet in their heart,
there is a blind war going on.
its being covered into a blackish shade,
yet you'd never know,
except in their eyes.

be careful on the words you shoot them with,
because they hit them like knives.
one by one,
they'll soon bleed to death.

you can't even get out of bed,
because there is nothing to look forward to.
suddenly ur friends and family
are now miles away.
they watch u in tears,
yet ur somewhere else...

suddenly the victim is now the abuser as well,
with scars and bruises and burns on their arm...
they know were it came from,
but they would never admit tht...even when its obvious,
cuz the words will not come out,
cuz they swore themselves to secrecy.

they have no place to go,
sometimes its the people around them,
but sometimes they just wanna escape from themselves.
so they'll run off to a bar,
maybe even the streets.
no one knows where th f*ck they go...
just away...

but sometimes tht is not enough,
and people even want more of an escape.
they choose no to eat,
or eat too much.
they dont sleep at all,
or sleep too much.
they dont care about life,
because its just not worth living.
they hurt themselves,
to punish themselves,
while others,
do it to feel alive.

Suddenly,
you don't feel like doing anything anymore,
whatever u use to love and dream about and die for,
is not important,
and useless...

soon,
everything becomes useless,
until death doesn't seem to be such a nasty idea.
it's actually a solution to all ur problems.
its suddenly on ur mind constantly.
its like a new bright desire.
to be burnt alive,
in h3ll's fire.

but right now,
it seems to far away,
so instead,
to live,
i punish myself daily...

it doesn't matter though,
lets just erase this subject.
i'd rather stay speechless
when it comes to this stuff...

but don't worry,
you won't lose me,
non of you...
but i'll lose u all,
it won't be ur fault,
but mine.

and then tht day,
i'll commit suicide.
and if they ask y,
blame it on this stupid name.
they'll be like "ohhh..."
and move over...

and even though the name is stupid,
it is also a monster.
cancer can kill...
so can this...



Depression....