God is Unfathomable

I still want to be a Christian and hope that I still am. However, the more I read the bible the more I am convinced that this book never ever fully showed the true identity of God. Surely I have good reasons for that. Recently, I read the passage when God was talking to Job. I was appalled by God’s unfaithful attitude toward his servant. God questioned Job, and even though Job didn’t wrong Him, he still repented in dust and ashes before Heavenly Lord. Job despised himself to please God. He torn his clothes and fell down face naked in front of God. In the bible, God was the first one who seduced people to sin and they failed. He was the first one who failed to forgive just very little thing like eating forbidden fruit. He put disaster on Earth and blamed people for that. God caused separation among people by splitting their language in many. God was the first one who demanded sacrifice of immeasurable degree: claiming the life of only son from Abraham. Therefore, why do we Christians still can’t understand why so many people in the world hate bible and refuse to believe in Biblical God? We live in this imperfect world, but we still call its Creator Perfect just in any way. We were born and now we have to apologize to God for that by saying that death is all we deserve. We also say that by Grace His Holy Grace we are all alive. God is just doing us a favor by giving us life. We are all damn roaches; we are not worth a single penny. Yes, I would agree that each one of us indeed deserve a little and boasting as well as looking down at other people is never good. But if every one of us decides to dedicate his or her life to serve and love one another, then we all surely deserve some love and comfort in return. But if someone of us decides to hurt and neglect many for the sake of own profit, so how little love and comfort should he or she receive in return. Replacing love with material stuff and being proud of your own financial or even educational achievement should bring disaster to the house of foolish man. So, let us serve and love one another if you want to be served and loved in return, for its sums up all the rules coming from prophets and Jesus Christ himself. I want to call myself a Christian, because I want to be a follower of Christ. It means I totally accept his words and want to put every single of them in my practice. Christ called me a friend, and he told that my life was worth living. Christ told me that God loved me and appreciated me. And that I didn’t need to spend hours praying and praising him, but rather be beneficial to many people around me. I love Jesus because he showed me how precious life really is. And if I am ever proud, I am proud that you are here with me right now to support and love again and again. Thank you. Amen. I believe that True God is incredibly powerful and loving. However, I also believe that He has his own struggles and failures. Not everything goes in the way He wishes. Some pieces come together just great, the others not so well. But God never gives up and corrects everything which didn’t go well. He never gives up on us. He cares whether we live in harmony and love with one another. I don’t think that God really concerns whether we believe in Him or not. He doesn’t pay much attention to our religious songs, because he doesn’t really need them. But he needs us living in harmony and love with one another and the rest of the world we live in. He cries and weeps with us and heavy rain comes down from the sky. He also laughs with us, and asks us to be patient with Him and one another. But in many many things, God is too Huge, too Powerful, too Long Living to be fully understood. I believe that we just only started scratching the surface of knowing our God. But we will never fully know our God. He is too much unfathomable for us. Therefore, we will never say for sure whether God truly exists or whether He is just a part of our imagination.