My thoughts are haunting me

There are things I should be doing

And things I shouldn't 

I can't seem to pay attention to which is which

My house is a mess: I'm packing and throwing

Unpacking and washing

Writing and reading

Playing and meditating 

I want what I want

I want to do what I want

Yet things that I must do

Control my thoughts

My conscience speaks to me

Do what you must

not what you want

It says

I hate my conscience