I don't want to...

I don't want to love you. I don't want to care. I don't want to wake up wishing you were there. I don't want to listen to another lie. I don't want to be hurt. I don't want to cry. I don't want to feel the way I do. I don't want to wish I was with you. I don't want to say I'm okay when I'm not. I don't want to wait for you to come around. I don't want to deal with these feelings. I don't want to fall apart. I don't want to live with a broken heart. I don't want to bottle everything up inside. I don't want to just run and hide. I don't want to think about you everyday. I don't want to be confused and not know what to say. I don't want to be told everything will work out. I don't want to have to scream and shout. I don't want to stress out over you. I don't want to worry about the crap that you do. I don't want to be jealous when your with another girl. I don't want to wait on you forever. I know that its over, I know that we're through, and there's nothing I can do. I didn't ask to love, I didn't ask to care, thanks for pretending you'd always be there. This is the end, my fellow goodbye, this is the last time you'll ever make me cry. ~*{May 16, 2011} [C.S.M.D]