"WHEN EVERYTHING FEELS LIKE THE MOVIES
YEA YOU BLEED JUST TO KNOW YOUR ALIVE"

i think my heart has been broken far too many times
whether it was family, friends, boys, or just to many lies

a good friend once told me that i shouldnt have to force
true happiness and that it would come in due time
the only true happiness that i have is my child in my life


dont get me wrong, my baby girl is more than what i need
but i am only human and my heart yearns to fill the spaces
that are empty

i guess i just dont deserve to be happy at all
and to cope with that decision i use to cut and watch that
red river fall

but that is no longer a choice that i will ever make
i have my daughter
and if the happiness i seek never arrives that is a risk i
am willing to take