MEMORIES

EMOTIONS ARE RAGING MY MIND IS PACING NOW IM FORCED TO DEAL WITH THE ISSUES THAT FACE ME THOUGHTS THAT I HAVE TRIED TO SUPPRESS, HAVE RESURFACED AGAIN SHOWING ME AN ENEMY IN THE MIRROR AND NOT A FRIEND WHEN I LOOK INTO THE MIRROR I DONT SEE MY REFLECTION AT ALL I ONLY SEE YOU,AND AGAIN I FEEL SMALL I TRY SO HARD TO ENCLOSE THIS PAIN THEN MY TEARS BEGIN TO FLOW LIKE RAIN AND IN MY MIND ONE QUESTION IS ON REPEAT: DADDY HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME? 10 YEARS OLD AND HE WAS MY FIRST THE WORLD BECAME A SPHERE OF PAIN AND HURT WHO KNEW THAT BEING RAPED WOULD BECOME A NORMAL THING EVERY SINGLE YEAR AFTER THAT,THOUGH I SUPPRESSED THE MEMORIES BECAUSE MY VOICE WAS SILENCED AND MY SOUL COULDNT SPEAK MOMMY CALLED ME A LIER WHEN I SAID DADDY TOUCHED ME SHE LET HIM STAY AROUND UNTIL HE LEFT AND SAID I WAS THE REASON TO BE AND I WAS FORCED TO CALL AND GIVE HIM AN APOLOGY I DONT WANT TO KEEP ADDING NUMBERS ONTO HOW MANY TIMES IT HAS HAPPENED TO ME.I JUST WANT IT TO STOP :'(