Somewhere in the Open

Somewhere in the open My heart falls through cracks And everyone sees The mess I have made Empty streets, full of heartache and loss Regret and shame I turn my head so you don't see The black in my eyes and tears Shadows cover me now I wear them for protection And I walk alone pretending to be cold I want to feel like others feel And live each step I trudge uphill A lonely walk for me without emotions I reach out to someone sicker Can I pull you down here? Where the dark sky never ends And the stars burn out and fade to gray It is beautiful here It is only what you believe it is My perception of it yesterday was much different I pick up my shattered dreams and throw them over my shoulder In hopes that tomorrow will find me fresh A different day with a different outlook on life Although I am only fooling myself The darkness will follow wherever my heart lies And leaving a trail of hopelessness behind me For someone else to follow I walk away