To The Past

This is to the past, somehow I knew it would not last. Friends who tried and failed. Ones who lied, cried, even ones who have died. Now im losing sleep im caught in deep thought, thinking of the tears i shed or the nights i've bled on the inside begging for one more chance at life. I was so near I could even hear the words you whispered behind my back I knew there was something i had to lack. Friendship is one love another. I cant see failing again and again and losing and winning and crying for sheer joy or crying in pain when the last word you said was my name.