The Blackest Cloud I've Ever Seen..

I was given a heart full Of love and forgiveness, Though I didn't really have a choice, I've never really spoke my mind, I've never really had A voice. And every time someone made me cry, I'd forgive them I didn't want to So i don't know why. People say my heart is pure, But its the blackest cloud I've ever seen, No one knows the inside, Its good to them.. It's bad to me. Don't get me wrong I love the good things for them that i do I just want to feel okay This war inside my heart, It's what I've gotten used to.