Wonder

i remember thinking that they were all that with perfect hair and gorgeous eyes and bodies that made me feel fat. now i question all my reasons why are they so great? i simply cannot analyze what was feeding my hate. i see them everywhere i go in such large numbers, adored by ll i dont understand why i let my self esteem fall they dont even fit the definition of a "hoe" sure i know i was jealous they have things i want but what really bothers me is the way they cnstantly flaunt. i admit that i've said ome things that caused a lot of controversy but in the end, i learned that my mind is my adversary. i have given, as much as received my share of dirty looks but now they no longer pull at me like a pathetic fish on a hook i have said my apologies whether they accept, i care not i will continue my life because i know their perfect lives cannot be bought.