feel me (unrequited love), by Anthony Cardon
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To open this document to simple express,
how many hours, days, months
have the wheels of my heart refused to conjure a conceivable
thought?
Months of toiling through what I feel for you
- limerance
the hurt that convolutes,
- becoming void,
what whispered fervently but could not be spoken - words
will not justify
In truth, what lacked was in knowledge
of purposes and dealings of anguish,
of the proper understanding of unrequited experience
- what could have undone time wasted with
thought
(proper perspective - lively, yet serious and dismissive -
was it possible?)
I am mute
my hesitation has caught my tongue and fingers.
the comfort of values and wisdom floating in the cosmos,
away from me
Eyes never expressive enough in photographs - for you to
see
too much makeup - emotions trapped between black lines
Maybe my words were not needed,
your presence absorbed them
- hints
I've spoken enough about this last season,
- with you -
resolution is none or worse
Now my words say goodbye,
Now I shut out our most prided bond - honesty
will it dishevel us? Will you allow it to?
Would you want to know? Of the seriousness, of the tortuous
length of time? - the awkward endlessness?
a possible doom - losing the person you had to hurt to gain
I felt my dreams - at night a week in a row
of destruction, of awkwardness
- of utter premonition
- of mutual knowledge of irreparability
Feel me,
bring me out,
force these words to explode.
Feel me.
You deserve to hear this pain.
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Posted: 2012-03-14 04:33:57 UTC |
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