Silent outburst

Opening my mouth to cry To show the pain I feel Inside but the attempts Made are useless, my tear glands dried up But my heart slowly erupt I try to speak to God Can't find the words to say My guilt and conciseness Made my tongue heavy, my mind falls apart Taking blows of the devils dart Trying to explain to friends How the turmoil never ends Wrong choice of words They pretend to listen but I'm still not heard Showing rebellious attitude Hoping you would see my fear to live To pursue success In your eyes I'm only a pest Exposing my scars intentionally So you can use my past to understand me You see it a sense of lure When I am really just insecure Tired of being misunderstood My issues, brings fear Oh I wish you could hear All my silent outburst