i'll smile and pretend my life is good,
that i wouldn't kill myself if only i could.

I'll take the abuse for being a shit friend,
and i'll remember there will come an end.

i'll laugh out loud to hide my tears,
and carry armor to dispel my fears.

i'll hold my heart so you cant see the cracks,
for loving you, is what my life lacks.

I'll keep this secret till i stand alone,
and the light of you has left my home.

i'll fight the darkness to bring the light,
but i'll never except, the cold dead night.