How does it feel now that you are on your own?
No one who loves you , no place to call home
wishing and dreaming of happier days
days soon go and past drifts away
 
People surround you pretending they care
Then leave you alone when they see your despair
The knife against your wrist wont seem to budge
The alcohol you drink is never enough
the half written goodbye letter ,the tears in your eyes
You think about dying every single night
You think of the heartache and the grief inside
You are just too sick of seeing tears in your eyes
you finally think that you made the right move
and you go for it not a moment too soon
 
it isn't that you are weak
its because no one will listen
no one seems to understand the pain
your tears in moonlight glisten 
people will hate you and think you were wrong
leaving them so soon after another loved one had gone
thinking of yourself and not having a care
but it was none of them reasons
it was because it hurt not having her there
it hurt too much to lose someone you loved
and you tried so hard to act so tough
you painted on a smile and you faked a laugh
deep down you cried and couldn't choose a right path
you softly whimpered her name every night
and you held on to the pillow with all of your might
 
you just couldn't see through the pain
and that deep throbbing heartache it drove you insane
you stared out the window but she never came
you even resorted to calling her name
no where to be found this wasn't a game
i just couldn't live with that intense pain
it is true when they say life does go on
but i cannot wait and see because that road is too long
i promise i am sorry that i just couldn't be strong
and i will love you forever, forgive me i was wrong...
 
 
3rd december 08