Time is a healer so they say,
so why does it take so long realising you gone away?
The day of the funeral pain kept inside,
but then i saw the coffin and broke down and cried.
A part of me had truly died now you were no longer at my
side.


This house without you no longer a home,
Such a long and scary road when you are alone.
Crying tears in the darkness, feel the sorrow in my heart.
The sorrow that slowly is ripping my heart apart.

People say life goes on and yes it is true,
but my life will not go on if i don't have you.
Happiness ripped out of me now i stand alone,
Losing friends was fine but losing you i won't condone 

Tears cried out till nothing is left,
Everyone who tries to get close i detest.
The fear if i get close i may lose them next,
This heartache controls me , my brain put to a test.
Sometimes i just feel empty and don't know what to do,
all i keep thinking is should be me who died not you.

People hover around trying to manipulate me,
They see me now as weak and spot vulnerability 
Little do they realise i am stronger then i ever been.
Tried to be a good girl but now forgive me i have sinned.
I just cannot be the innocent i used to be,
in order to survive i must be selfish and live free.


I will do my best to do you proud until we meet again,
until that day sleep well my mother and my friend ....