Love?

I can't love people any more, I only love the people who I have decided to love years ago the people I almost know that will never hurt me, the reason I don't love people any more is because they will hurt me but I don't think I deserve to be loved anyway I don't think I should be loved because I'm me I am worthless and broken and no one should have to deal with me …ever so thats why I want to die young and alone so I won't be hurt again …but there is a part of me that still has a little hope